dont worry bout alistair. i know what you saying chantay, but you kno he is very old (and fat, jokes, jokes), but maybe he just came into yoru lifeso you got a glimpse of what could eb adn what you want. and u know hesgot qualistairties that you want in a man, so you set taht standard and dontwant anything less. dont think too much of it ay. your young. we got so many more men coming our way girl. and yeah, bout fred?? hmm......i think about him everyday, but notobsessively and not too long. just a litle bit...like i think of his mile and his face and how we use to look at each other or whatever,corny hashishff. but then i think ' we only ever saw each other basically intoxicated at a club so putting it in black and white, it was nothing.and it really is nothing. nothing will come out of it and i know he wont matter to me at all soon. once i write it down in my diary, the whole story and how i felt, jsut let it all out, tis over. even if he wanted me now, i know i couldnt take him. no way hosay.